It’s 12:30 am and I can’t sleep. Part of it might have been not sleeping last night and then sleeping in until 2 this afternoon and part of it might be that my brain isn’t shutting up. So.. enjoy this entry which is the purgings of my brain.
[+] I’ve been in So Cal for about two weeks now. I’ve done things like get my California driver’s license, register to vote, get renter’s insurance, fight with the SSA over Daniel’s SSI (just don’t ask — it was an unpleasant experience), and all that. Part of me is trying not to get too comfy because this could just be a temporary thing. (Our “snuggery” is a month-to-month lease.) However, we may be here for awhile so I’m also trying to set down some roots.
[+] Unpacking “the snuggery” (as our abode is nicknamed) has been harder than expected because when I thought I had pared things down to bare essentials, I was quite wrong. I could probably have saved a coffee table but I also have waaaay too much for the kitchen and waaaay too much of Daniel’s stuff there. It’s been hard because so much needs to go back to my in-laws’ garage (where we’re storing things) and it’s a matter of sorting that all out.
[+] Daniel is cutting 4 teeth so I have a grumpy bear on my hands much of the time. He *did* take a nap today after having some Tylenol but I have no idea if he’ll wake up at 3 again or actually sleep through the night. I feel sorry for him — it has to be pretty painful.
[+] In addition to applying for every clerical job between here and Riverside, I also applied to work at Michael’s because it seemed like one of the few retail jobs that I’d actually enjoy. I can already envision myself helping customers find yarn things for projects and such. However, I did all the online app stuff and none of it means that I’m going to be hired. I’m trying not to put all my eggs in this one basket but it would be a pretty nice job.
[+] One of my in-laws’ neighbors/family friends needed a walking partner so my mother-in-law hooked us up. Our first night out was tonight and it was kind of nice to be the fast walker for a change since my stubby little legs usually make me lag behind.
[+] I’m pondering the thought of starting a pastor’s wife podcast. Any of my clergy spouse readers got any ideas?
[+] Please lift my father-in-law up in prayer because they’re trying to figure out what he has and he is in really serious pain. The C-word is definitely in the picture and it’s a matter of finding out which kind it is. We’ll probably get the diagnosis in a week but please pray for him and my mother-in-law in the meantime because the unknown of all of this is really terrifying for them.
[+] For some reason unbeknownst to me, I’m pondering the idea of a second child because something in me wants a little girl named Hannah Grace. Those who know me in real life know that this is a really BAAAAAD idea right now for several reasons. Firstly, this is not the time to be pregnant and needing stability and being in one place when things are kind of in flux. Secondly, it’s not financially beneficial as we’re covered by Jon’s insurance but pregnancy is expensive. Thirdly, my body is already giving up on me. Pregnancy would make that worse. Lastly, I’m in the MASSIVE HIGH RISK category for pregnancy after my experience last April. I’d be pretty much on 9-months of bed rest and that doesn’t work out with an 11 month old and the possibility of having to help take care of my father-in-law. I know my mother-in-law would help to the extent that she could, but the focus needs to be on my father-in-law right now, not me.
[+] I’m pondering the idea of getting a Celtic knot tattoo on my shoulder for my 30th birthday in May. Am I crazy?
I’ve been in my undisclosed location since Monday night (can we just say desperate need of R&R that I haven’t been able to have since before Daniel was born?) and it’s been good. I was able to have coffee with Abra (who is also Daniel’s godmother)and today, I was able to sit at Posh Bagel and have lunch while reading and people-watching. I’ve been able to go for walks, something that I can’t do in Montana because of the current weather as well as the lack of sidewalks and such and I’ve been able to enjoy being around my family — it’s the first time I’ve been “home” in 3 years.
This is all good stuff because after some respite, Jon and I will probably be filling out call papers to head wherever God wants us to go next. Meanwhile, we’re moving to southern California to be close to family, friends, and just in a civilized environment with things like specialists in fields that apply to us (i.e. psychiatry, rheumatology for me, and possibly perinatalogy). As much as I dislike southern California, it’s offering us things that we don’t have in Montana or even up north with my parents: childcare options that do not involve daycare (*insert explanation of preemies and daycare risks), friends OUR AGE with whom we can go do stuff, family… We’ll assess our needs for the next parish and I think it will be a better time for us if we can take this time out and be normal people for awhile instead of the strange category that we fall under as clergy and clergy spouse.
1. What did you do in 2009 that you??d never done before?
Give birth. See a good chunk of Alberta.
2. Did you keep your new year??s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
For the most part, no. Not sure if I’ll make more for next year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Me. 🙂 Also a few friends and a few people in the community.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
One of our parishioners who I became close to.
5. What countries did you visit?
Canada. Most specifically, Alberta.
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
A parish for Jon.
7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 7th: Daniel’s birth
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Having the dude.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not dwelling on anything so I couldn’t say.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Probably jeans from Lands’ End or pajama bottoms
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
The list is way too long and also too risky for me to post in an un-passworded entry.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Buying Similac Neosure for the dude.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Daniel kicking butt in the NICU.
16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Not sure — there are many.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
(a) happier or sadder? a little of both in different ways
(b) thinner or fatter? unfortunately the latter
(c) richer or poorer? richer, actually
18. What do you wish you??d done more of?
Eating better and walking to get some of the pregnancy weight off.
19. What do you wish you??d done less of?
20. How did you spend Christmas?
In Seattle with my family.
21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Very deeply in love with Daniel.
22. What was your favorite TV program?
Smoking Gun: World’s Dumbest
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn??t hate this time last year?
24. What was the best book you read?
Animal, Vegetable, Miracle by Barbara Kingsolver
the Twilight books
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
No musical discoveries but I did find some great podcasts
26. What did you want and get?
A healthy baby.
27. What did you want and not get?
A parish for Jon.
28. What was your favorite film of this year?
None. I don’t do movies.
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
29 and I went out to dinner after work before heading down to the NICU.
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
32. What kept you sane?
Daniel’s smile and laughter. TIVO’ed episodes of “Smoking Gun”
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
35. Who did you miss?
A lot of people who I wish lived closer.
36. Who was the best new person you met?
The NICU staff at Benefis.
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
Pre-natal care is important and life-saving.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
“Let it be”
As you can see from my sticky post, I’m definitely making progress on NaNo this month. I’m not bounding ahead like I did when I tried it in 2006 but I also haven’t put in any long prayers or hymns… at least not yet.
The little bear is teething and teething hard at that. His canine teeth are coming in which makes it not too much fun for us or him. He also contracted a bug (probably from some moron touching his face before I could slap their hand away) which triggered asthma and bronchial crud. He landed in the ER last Sunday and we’ve been having to give him breathing treatments. He’s doing fine and doesn’t mind his “hookah time” at all.
Other than that, it’s been sleep/work/play with Daniel/sleep lately and squeezing in some NaNo writing time.
The run-down of the last 15 days:
[+] Daniel ended up in the ER on the 13th. He was coughing badly and spitting up. Our chief of medicine (whom I loathe and would rather die than see) was on duty and to my surprise, he actually had a small semblance of a bedside manner. He ordered some bloodwork and an x-ray and found that Daniel was probably just still dealing with having the breathing tube down his throat… except that he wasn’t intubated!!!! (Not that Dr. Ego listened to me…) He gave him some antibiotics to ward off anything that could be there.
[+] On the 14th, I was home with a sinus infection and had just been to see the doctor. I was stopped in front of the Dash Inn waiting for someone to pass so I could turn left when a woman plowed into me at 30 mph, knocking me into the other lane and parking lot. It’s good that she ended up pulled over across the street because I was seriously going to rip her head off. My car was unquestionably totalled — the back end was smushed in to the point that the back doors were stuck in the frame. I was in complete shock and the firemen and paramedics decided that it would be really good to take me to the hospital. I was in the ambulance with HER (the person who hit me) and one of the little kids in her car.
I was stone-silent the whole way to the hospital — I was just SO mad. I mean, it’s just a car and THANK GOD I DIDN’T HAVE DANIEL WITH ME but I loved the car and it meant independence for me because we live in the middle of nowhere. The doctor I’d just seen (Dr. SuperCool) the new osteopath at the clinic) was on call and she was like “I just saw you….” She ordered x-rays and checked me out. The x-rays came back clean for my back and neck and she gave me some Darvocet with Skeletax to deal with the pain and relax the muscles down.
Currently, I’m waiting for the MHP to send over the paperwork so I can get the police report to my insurance company. HER also apparently doesn’t exist in most forms so nobody has been able to get ahold of her to get insurance information, making this whole process more complicated.
On the 23rd, I was having really bad neck pain so I went back to Dr. SuperCool and asked her for some OMM. It was an *interesting* experience but it worked wonders and I haven’t had much pain since.
[+] Jon had a call interview in California so we flew out on the 24th with Daniel. He traveled really well and my in-laws greeted us at the airport with signs, ribbons, and balloons. They also got us In n’ Out for dinner. My sister-in-law and I got pedicures the next day (thanks to my wonderful father-in-law) and we got to have hang-out time with Daniel’s godparents (well… one set) and their daughter Emily who would be our god-daughter if they believed in infant baptism.
The interviews on Saturday went well (I think) and the people were really nice. Jon preached two services on Sunday and the call committee from [the-church-who-must-not-be-named] came to see him. The best part of all of this was watching my father-in-law and Daniel bond — there were some definitely cute moments. My evil twin and his fiancÃ?e also flew down for Sunday and so they got to meet Daniel.
The dude was finally “of age” (50 weeks gestation) to have his hernia surgery so we headed down to Great Falls after work on Wednesday. It had been a craptastic day for me so I rewarded myself by experiencing the wonderfulness that is Sonic for the first time. We thought the dude was going to be up all night and scream at us indignantly because he couldn’t have any formula after midnight, but he slept instead. If we’d actually known this, maybe WE would have gone to bed on time and not stayed up on our laptops until midnight.
Surgery was at 7:30ish on Thursday and Daniel charmed the scrubs off his surgical staff. His anesthesiologist talked to us about just doing a coddle block on him (kind of like an epidural) instead of putting him under completely and apparently Daniel’s surgeon agreed so the dude didn’t get to enjoy the joy that is morphine. I thought I’d be freaking out in the waiting room but the only hellish thing was the presence of FOX News on the TV and that was easily blocked out using headphones and iTunes. Surgery went well and when they brought him to us in the post-op area, he was awake and really pissed that OMG-HE-HADN’T-EATEN-IN-NINE-HOURS-AND-WHY-WERE-WE-GIVING-HIM-THIS-WEIRD-SUBSTANCE-CALLED-WATER-THAT-WAS-NOT-HIS-FORMULA?!?!?!?!?!!!?!?!? While we were waiting for him to have a wet diaper and be cleared to leave, I enjoyed some seriously great dude time with him snuggled into the crook of my arm. After we got back to the Great Falls Inn, we all took naps after feeding the dude. He was doing so well that day that we went to go see my aunt and uncle later.
We drove home on Friday after stopping by the surgeon’s office to get some Vaseline gauze (seriously the grossest stuff EVER!!!!). The dude had some issues last night — his bowels started moving and he got fed too much and ended up puking on me right after I’d given him his Tylenol. He also aspirated a little bit which meant a lovely conversation with the hospital on what to do. (I swear… I think they play rock-paper-scissors over who gets to deal with me.) The dude couldn’t have any more Tylenol as we weren’t sure what he’d actually kept down so we had a VERY howly little boy because he was uncomfortable. (In addition to the hernia repair, they also circumsized him.)