About Jen

Jen isn't quite sure when she lost her mind, but it is probably documented here on Meditatio. She blogs because the world needs her snark at all hours of the night... and she probably can't sleep anyway.

pissed off jen!

if bush sympathizes with the state of california so much, he can take cold showers, lose his heat, and have the power go out in the middle of an important paper. but wait… if he did anything to ease the power crunch, he’d lose campaign funds. funny how this alleged “uniter” is really a major “divider”.

as someone who was sexually harassed in high school, this story broke my heart, especially the fact that the boys don’t get punished and the girls get suspended for fighting back. i feel the pain of these girls as i struggled with night terrors for two years afterward and am just *now* starting to feel safe again.

moving rooms

well… i started the process for moving in with amy and kurt and linda today. all i need to pack is my computer, my books, and my clothes before i move on wednesday.

urban plunge

well… urban plunge was amazing and awesome. people from santa cruz and from santa clara university spent the weekend learning about God’s love for the poor, doing service projects, and fellowshipping together. we were staying at san francisco christian center and they were wonderful hosts. the people who came by during the weekend were all asking us how things were going, if they could do anything for us, and we worshipped with them today. it’s an african-american church so for many of us it was a cross-cultural worship experience. it was an amazing service and one of the most alive ones that i have ever been to. there were 70 year old women in the aisles dancing to the youth choir and we were just getting down to the music and dancing.

some highlights of the weekend were:
-the skits on saturday night, especially the genesis one. (think beatnik poetry meets the pentateuch with some 50’s music thrown in)
-scouring steps and weeding gardens on saturday
-the worship service this morning
-lunch today. (cheap but good mexican food)
-the time when everyone was getting ready for bed and were talking


ok… the trees are dancing kind of wildly. this isn’t a good thing.

i will probably not update this page until sunday afternoon since i’ll be in sfo with iv doing social work type stuff from friday afternoon to sunday afternoon. we’ll be working with various groups there and staying at a church. it should be really wonderful.

Bible study lessons

ok… monsoon season has resumed. or should that be hurricane season? all i know is that i am a cold and wet lepicat!!!!

my urbana page is up. (finally!!!!) woooo hooooo!!!!

tonight at Bible study, we were talking about what it means to abide in God, whether it is an inward manifestation or an outward manifestation and it got me thinking about how things have changed since freshman year or even fall of 1999 when i was depressed. back then, i would sob uncontrollably during the depression attacks whereas now i pray during them. a few weeks ago, i got hit with a particularly bad one and i remember opening my new calendar and seeing psalm 13:5 on it. God then moved me to read the psalm out loud and i realized that it mirrored the way i was feeling to a t. here is psalm 13 with verses 5 and 6 (my encouragement) in italics: how long, o Lord? will you forget me forever? how long will you hide your face from me? how long must i wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? how long will my enemy triumph over me? look on me and answer, o Lord my God. give light to my eyes, or i will sleep in death; my enemy will say, “i have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when i fall. but i trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. i will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me. it was kind of like God saying, “jen… i know you’re suffering but i’m here with you.” i really needed to hear that. i knew He was there (He always is) but i think sometimes i just need a reminder.

why i haven’t written in ages

let’s see… i’m taking an extra-heavy load with 40+ pages due at the end of the quarter, i’ve applied to grad school, my major is finally (!!!!) declared, and i spent a weekend with my fox. can i take a few months off now?

noe is having to withdraw this quarter. waaaaaah!!!

depression attack!

i am incredibly depressed today as well as sick. i didn’t sleep well last night because i was coughing and a whole lot of stress hit me today. if you pray, please pray for me.