well… jon talked to his dad last night and he said that it was a wonderful conversation. his dad had some suggestions that are answers to things that we had been praying about for a long time. apparently, spouses can take classes free at jon’s seminary so i can take intensive greek and hebrew after we get married and that will help me once i’m in seminary. i can also drive jon’s car to ohio which will give me a car to use while jon learns to drive. (it’s hard to believe that i’ll be learning to drive this weekend. i will admit that i’m scared but not as scared as i was about the ropes course.) jon and i also got a long conversation last night which was good because i was really sad about him being back in oregon. i know that i only have 8 more months of this but it’s still really hard. when i was in columbus, i was wishing that i could just cancel my plane ticket back and live in ohio with jon. however, i knew that my parents would have a fit as well as it being a pain to get my clothes and all of that shipped to me. we’re trying to see if we can’t spend some time together in the beginning of november and i’m praying that southwest or alaska has a cheap deal for that weekend. at least we can communicate by email, aol im, yahoo messenger, and phone until then. i miss my fox…

JON IS HERE!!!!!!!!

jon is here (i’m actually sitting on his lap writing this 🙂 ) and unfortunately we have to leave for the airport in half an hour. it was wonderful to see him again for the first time in 5 or 6 weeks and we had a wonderful time going to my medieval europe lecture (he asked lots of questions in class and probably impressed cindy), going downtown to see donna, having dinner and watching veggie tales with my Bible study, and doing devotions together last night. i actually did start my paper… on wednesday night. i finished it thursday night. i sort of feel like it could have been better but i’m not entirely sure what i’d do to fix it. perhaps make my analysis sound more sophisticated or something…


thank God. at least someone has the guts to stand up to the way mainline christianity is being ruined by churches compromising their values.

the power went out at crown last night and the little frosh were running around screaming. geez… the lights were only off for a few five minute periods. they are all adults — they know that there is nothing to be afraid of. it was annoying because i was trying to talk to jon and fall asleep. sigh… and i thought i was on a quiet floor…

lecture was good today as was lunch (it is all about sushi!!!!). i’m also getting laundry done. i went to the bookstore on the way down to the drc to copy notes and returned three books and got two more. i ended up down $2 more. i was going to check the various online book places but i don’t really think that i’ll have time. i keep forgetting that humanities classes are extremely costly as far as books. maybe tonight i’ll actually be able to start my paper…

sushi for lunch

as andrea would put it, i woke up as my “shadow self” this morning at 5:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep. i called jon and he spent an hour trying to calm me down. i was able to go back to sleep after we prayed. one more reason to keep jon: he’s there for me during my worst times as well as my best times. well… that and he gives really good hugs, even over the phone. 🙂

lecture was good (as cindy’s always are) and lunch was good — they had sushi — yeahhhhh!!! jon louie and kurt and others were also there which was nice. i’ve been missing the communal meals that i’ve grown accustomed to in the last two years. afterwards, i got some soc readings done and picked out a document to analyze for my paper.

i was kind of sad to see that jocelyn was also “in her shadow self” in her entry from yesterday. poor jocelyn.

JIG training

it’s strange still not to start the year with a 19 when i write it. oh well… it’s taken me 20 years to adjust to just the 19 so i’ll probably be 40 when i start writing the 20- correctly. (jen’s random comment for the day)

the seminar on jig’s that i went to was really cool. “jig”‘s are Jesus investigation groups and they’re different from Bible studies in that you are looking at examples of Jesus’ life to try to find out who He is. it’s mostly for non-christians to try to break down the stereotype of Christ as a mean, nasty, judgmental God. we did a practice one though and my group kind of didn’t realize that we were supposed to role-play being non-christians and we did it as a regular Bible study. jill asked us at the end, though, how this differed from a regular Bible study. it focuses more on the text and on what it says about Jesus rather than what we can apply to our lives. it was really good.

unfortunately, the little freshlings across the hall from me decided to invite people over last night and smoke some pot. pot smoke got in my room and needless to say, i did not appreciate waking up gagging and vomiting this morning from the effects of the smoke. they were also really loud which wasn’t great as i was trying to sleep. i’d say that they’re stupid freshmen except that a lot of the frosh on my hall are really cool and some readers of this journal might take offense. needless to say, i’m not happy with them.

my soc professor is an idiot!!!

: i’m erasing the journal entry from yesterday because i don’t feel like it was really accurate about my day. incidentally, cindy was right: paul is a hellenistic jew (sorry cindy) and i’m actually kind of grateful that she knows something of what she is teaching.

my soc professor, however, does not impress me as someone who really knows the Bible. he thought that the Gospel according to john was the books of revelations. (hello? they are different books.) the video was also more into the mainstream Christian view of “symbolic interpretation” which annoyed me because i feel like people need to get away from trying to prove the Bible and just read it.

my reading in cj today was acts 9:1-19 (paul’s conversion experience) and i’m feeling like ananias right now. in the passage, the Lord goes to ananias and asks him to seek paul out so ananias can heal him. ananias is kind of skeptical because paul is the guy that is persecuting the followers of Jesus. likewise, i feel like ananias when i’m in my classes these days since i feel so persecuted. ucsc prides itself on religious tolerance but for some odd reason, christians can’t be part of that. for example, our fliers have been stapled over and vandalized. if we did that to the muslim student association or to a buddhist organization, we’d be kicked off campus, yet people can do things like that to ours? great. people have also told me that i must be feeling really submissive to my fiancée because christianity is so “misogynic”. it can be — but only by those who quote random scriptures and ignore the ones that say that all of us are equal. sigh…

jon louie came to visit yesterday and it was an interesting though somewhat one-sided conversation. we did try to talk but i felt like jon was preaching to me and soliloquizing again. it was nice to see him though i feel like we’ve lost the spiritual bond since he’s stopped going to church for whatever reason.


last night was really tough because i was missing jon to the point of tears. after he called me and we talked, he suggested that i get out of my room and go be with people. as someone who is getting more introverted by the hour, it was tough but i went to hang out with my friends linda, casi, and deryn for a few hours. we watched movies, linda worked on my back, we ate chocolate… i think that that was the best remedy — a girl’s night out.

today i got my books and signed my savings over to the (evil) forces known as the uc regents. i’m scouring, b&, and to see if i can’t get my books cheaper that way. i know that cindy said that we didn’t have to get all of them but the optional ones were really cool. i think that paul also left a few off his reading list or something because there were 6 books on the shelf and only 4 on the list. argh.

mike just gave me permission to link him. wooo hoooo!!!! i guess for right now, all there is to do is finish this journal entry and update some pages and spell check stuff. oh yeah… also listen to ccm and belt it out at the top of my lungs.