Jen isn't quite sure when she lost her mind, but it is probably documented here on Meditatio. She blogs because the world needs her snark at all hours of the night... and she probably can't sleep anyway.
Outside my window… dark. We had rain today. It was positively glorious even if I was walking to and from preschool in my pretty clothes to pick Daniel up in the midst of it.
I am thinking… that the rain and cold temps should have stayed longer. I enjoyed my afternoon in fleece pj bottoms and Daniel was extra cute in his lion jammies.
I am thankful… that the funeral at church went well and that the family catered the main food portions — we had at least 200 attending with probably 100+ of those coming back for lunch. The church ladies also came through excellently with dessert.
In the kitchen… funeral food! I baked butterscotch bars yesterday too.
I am wearing… blue old navy shirt and black running shorts.
I am going… to have to get swim diapers and a swimsuit for Daniel at some point tomorrow. Target ho!
I am wondering… if I will ever catch up on sleep.
I am reading… just finished A Trick of the Light by Louise Penny and Honeymoon with Murder by Carolyn G. Hart. I am going to start on the next oldest one I have as well as ask for the older ones from the library.
I am hoping… I get through all my plans tomorrow.
I am looking forward to… Ladies’ Night Out on Wednesday.
Around the house… a Cheerios tornado to be vacuumed up.
I am pondering… too many things to list.
One of my favorite things… chocolate frosting. I managed to snag some really good cake with a thick layer of frosting.
A few plans for the rest of the week: end-of-year program for Daniel tomorrow morning, last day of school and Ladies’ Night Out on Wednesday, probably story time at the library on Thursday, and a massage on Friday.
Technically, this could also be titled “A Hymn for Trinity Sunday” because it is is…
*drumroll*
Holy Holy Holy!
It was one of the first hymns I learned as a Christian and the tune (Nicaea) was used in my Summer Greek class when we were learning various Bible verses in Greek. (The second part of Revelation 4:8 was set to this tune.)
Holy, holy, holy! Lord God Almighty!
Early in the morning our song shall rise to Thee;
Holy, holy, holy, merciful and mighty!
God in three Persons, blessèd Trinity!
Holy, holy, holy! All the saints adore Thee,
Casting down their golden crowns around the glassy sea;
Cherubim and seraphim falling down before Thee,
Who was, and is, and evermore shall be.
Holy, holy, holy! though the darkness hide Thee,
Though the eye of sinful man Thy glory may not see;
Only Thou art holy; there is none beside Thee,
Perfect in power, in love, and purity.
Holy, holy, holy! Lord God Almighty!
All Thy works shall praise Thy Name, in earth, and sky, and sea;
Holy, holy, holy; merciful and mighty!
God in three Persons, blessèd Trinity!
(HT: NetHymnal)
As always, we have a YouTube video with the music and words.
I’ve been staring at this window for two days and trying to figure out why I can’t come up with Quick Takes. In the course of my Internet ablutions today, some things have become apparent.
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I’m depressed. Anyone who knows me isn’t going to be shocked by this. It’s a battle I’ve been fighting for almost 20 years, 13 of them with the help of medication. I’m not exactly quiet about it but I also don’t wear it on my sleeve. Probably the biggest sign of it is that I retreat more deeply inward than I already happen to be. I don’t eat, I sleep all the time… The last time this happened was two years ago when we moved to California. I lived with Daniel at my in-laws’ house for a month when we first got there and my mother-in-law slowly got me back up to being functional. Still, I’m taking my meds, I’m *trying* to eat, and I’m letting my body rest so hopefully this is temporary and I’ll rebound soon.
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I’m jealous. Don’t get me wrong, I love Daniel more than anything in this world (he’s right below Jesus) but it’s hard to be the mom of an autistic kid when your friends post videos of the cute things their kids do. It’s almost enough to make me want to give up Facebook… except that some of them do it on their blogs. I think the thing that’s the hardest for me is that Daniel is so delayed in his speech that it’s hard to know what he wants at times. I know that he will eventually talk — it’s just going to take some time. MORE time.
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I’m lonely. I finished Style, Sex, and Substance this weekend and I’ve been feeling bummed because I don’t have people like that who are my age around here. As much as I’m an introvert, I wish I had people with whom I can hang out who are my age. Perhaps, I should try to get to know some of the parents of the kids in Daniel’s class better.
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I’m PMS’ing. My period is being weird which is probably contributing to the general feeling of malaise. Unfortunately, my comfort food is Coke and I tend to crave meat in the form of burgers so I can’t say that my diet is really helping either. *sigh* Must learn to like spinach more during this time…
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I hate heat. It’s supposed to be near 100F in the next few days. Yeah… no desire whatsoever to be outside unless it’s a dire necessity. This does not bode well for exercise as my exercise of choice is walking. What? Go for a walk in the early morning? But that’s when I sleep! OK… must fix this.
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I’m also humbled. I was hurt by something that happened two months ago and finally God smacked me with a 2×4 and said “be that person” which led me to talk to those who hurt me. We’re talking it out and I’m wishing that I’d said something sooner.
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Brett’s Blogathon is helping to get me out of my funk. I’m totally excited about it in a way that I haven’t been excited about something in a long time. Come check it out at Blogging for Brett!
Outside my window… sunny and warm — 80’s probably.
I am thinking… that I should have turned the A/C on sooner.
I am thankful… Daniel finally went down for a nap through I’m hoping it wasn’t because he pitched off the coffee table and onto his head. (I’ve been monitoring his pupils and they were normal before he went down.)
In the kitchen… dishes to be done.
I am wearing… black t-shirt and black running shorts.
I am going… to check on Daniel. (Just checked on him — he’s breathing fine.)
I am wondering… how much wood a woodchuck could chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood. (I usually just delete this question.)
I am reading…A Trick of the Light by Louise Penny. I finally finished Style, Sex, and Substance this weekend as I had a few long drives where I wasn’t the one driving and could tuck in with my NOOK.
I am hoping… I can force myself to do some reading so my library books don’t sit for three weeks.
I am looking forward to… watching either “Hawaii Five-O” or “Hart of Dixie” tonight. (It’s the pilot of “Hart of Dixie” which I’ve seen a number of times so I might watch “Five-O” instead.
Around the house… dishes to do and Cheerios to vacuum up.
A favorite quote for today… “Thirty was so strange for me. I’ve really had to come to terms with the fact that I am now a walking and talking adult.” — C.S. Lewis (I just turned 32.)
One of my favorite things… Daniel sitting on the coffee table next to me eating Cheerios and trying to feed them to me.
A few plans for the rest of the week: OT meeting for Daniel and… I think that’s it. It’s strange not to have a laundry list of plans.
A peek into my day… Cullen helping with the laundry. Now if I could get him to do the dishes.
I downloaded a Mandisa song. Hades hath officially frozen over. It’s the “Good Morning” song and I got it off iTunes because I love the Toby Mac section in which he starts out going, “Top of the morning to ya ‘Disa!” It got stuck in my head and I finally had to download the song to get it out. I would normally rather have my nails pulled out with pliers than listen to Mandisa but this song is OK even if it has a “Jesus is my boyfriend” feel. Here’s the video:
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The song blowing me away at the moment is “Jesus, Friend of Sinners” by Casting Crowns. Casting Crowns does it again in coming up with a song that is completely quotable. I honestly can’t come up with a “best” lyric because it’s all wonderful. The more interesting of the lyric videos is below.
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In case anyone doesn’t normally read my blog, I have a cool eclipse pic. My suburb of Sacramento was too far south to get the full ring but I got what looks like a cat’s eye. My parents brought eclipse glasses up with them when they came for the communal birthday on Saturday so I got to watch it staring at the sun. It was quite spectacular and if Jon hadn’t had baccalaureate on Sunday night, we might have gone north to a place where we could get the full ring. Here’s the pic:
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I’ve had large amounts of insomnia which leads to naps while Daniel is at preschool. I’ve found that if NPR or Airline Pilot Guy don’t manage to put me to sleep, a good episode of old school “Mythbusters” does. Explosions calm me. If only I could get “World’s Wildest Police Chases” or COPS streaming on Netflix…
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I’m continuing to be thankful for my pledge not to discuss electoral politics this election season. I’m blown away by the rhetoric from both sides in the presidential, Congressional, and Prop 29 campaigns. Some of it, especially in the presidential campaign, are outright lies. I knew our country was polarized but seriously… get a grip, people. Even if you think someone is a complete idiot for supporting the candidate they do, you don’t have to be rude about it. I wish I could actually do some of my own campaigning but it would really not be good to do as the pastor’s wife. Anything I say/do reflects on Jon and has the significance of Jon saying it which isn’t great because he and I are on opposite sides of the political coin.
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The one thing we do agree on is that the “No on 29” campaign is the work of Satan in the form of the tobacco companies. It’s absolutely hideous that those monsters have come into California and are outspending the “Yes on 29” campaign 8-1. I don’t believe smokers have rights. It’s a filthy and disgusting habit and I think it should have as high a tax as possible to discourage people from doing it. I also believe those jerks who drop their butts on highways and streets should have to dodge cars to pick them up. I definitely don’t believe it should be allowed in any public place, especially since I’m asthmatic and cigarette smoke triggers respiratory distress in both me and Daniel. I’d love to make the people who land us in the hospital pay our ER bills. OK… off my soapbox.
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Even though Brett’s Blogathon is two months off, I’m working on it now. I have some Pioneer Woman type entries so I’m trying to get the pictures for those while I’m actually cooking them. (I’ll add the text later.) I also need to compile links and such so that I have them at my fingertips for the event. Come check out the fun at http://peacefulwaters.org/brett. While you’re there, consider donating to his adoption fund.
C’mon… he’s really cute and he needs to get to the USA so he can get some therapy for his cerebral palsy.
