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Jen isn't quite sure when she lost her mind, but it is probably documented here on Meditatio. She blogs because the world needs her snark at all hours of the night... and she probably can't sleep anyway.

The Simple Woman’s Daybook: March 1, 2011

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I almost lost Daniel tonight so pardon me if I’m a bit bitter and cynical.

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FOR TODAY March 1, 2011

Outside my window… the hallway to the MSICU and the PICU where Daniel is.

I am thinking… about how I’m going to get through this time of Daniel being in the PICU.

I am thankful for… Daniel rebounding and not needing to go on ECMO.

From the kitchen… I’m eating out of the hospital cafeteria — when I have an appetite.

I am wearing… grey shirt and pajama bottoms.

I am creating… this entry.

I am going… nowhere anytime soon except the bathroom and the PICU. (I’m banished to the “quiet room” tonight because they need to keep Daniel’s room open in case ECMO has to happen tonight.)

I am reading… Auntie Mayhem by Mary Daheim.

I am hoping… Daniel pulls through this soon and his lungs start making a turnaround. Mostly, I’m just hoping he makes it through the night without any more problems.

I am hearing… Jon sleeping, the ventilation system, occasional alarms. God willing, I will not hear “Code Blue: Tower 7 PICU.”

Around the house… I’m at UC Davis Medical Center. I don’t know when I’ll see the parsonage again.

One of my favorite things… the amount of support from family, friends, and parishioners. Also the way the nurses take care of me in addition to Daniel.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Being here in Sacramento at the UCD MC PICU.

Here is picture for thought I am sharing… My life is too horrific at the moment to photograph.

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OMG

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Daniel (with God’s help) pulled off a coup and managed to rebound with some ventilator tweaks and stay stable. They’re going to put off ECMO for the moment and God willing it will not have to be done during the night.

Praise God!

(God, you’re still on notice though.)

Flattened (I)

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I signed the paperwork for Daniel to be put on the heart-lung machine (ECMO) about half an hour ago or so.

Yes, it is seriously that bad.

I’m completely flattened. I threw up my dinner and I don’t know that I can eat again for a long time.

I’m simultaneously thoroughly pissed off at God and trusting Him to get us through this.

I’m just at the end of things.

The Simple Woman’s Daybook: February 21, 2011

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FOR TODAY February 21, 2011

Outside my window… Sunny and chilly. I got spoiled by southern California — I need to grow a winter coat!

I am thinking… that it’s worth it to have Daniel tear up the kitchen in order to get this post done. I’m also thinking that the table cloth and pretty arrangement are going to be gone imminently because he likes to pull on them.

I am thankful for… naptime. Enough said.

From the kitchen… Kraft Deluxe Mac n’ Cheese. Yes, it’s horrifically bad for me. It was also what I craved this morning.

I am wearing… light green v-neck shirt, black sweats.

I am creating… this entry. Also formulating an interesting idea for NaNoWriMo. Too bad that it isn’t until November.

I am going… to the store for diapers right after I write this.

I am reading… nothing at the moment. Also going to stop at the library.

I am hoping… that this two year old molar teething stops soon for Daniel.

I am hearing… Daniel wailing. His fangs hurt.

Around the house… boxes still abound but we’re working on it.

One of my favorite things… Cullen being a snuggle kitty at night.

A few plans for the rest of the week: unpacking as much as I can when I can.

Here is picture for thought I am sharing… Daniel’s new nursery

Daniel's new nursery

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The Simple Woman’s Daybook: February 14, 2011

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FOR TODAY February 14, 2011

Outside my window… Sunny and warm. It’s supposed to get rainy for moving day though. 🙁

I am thinking… about all the stuff that still needs to be done before Thursday.

I am thankful for… getting so much done so far and for my mother-in-law who is helping tremendously by baby-sitting Daniel.

From the kitchen… lots of Trader Joe’s frozen food.

I am wearing… jeans, my Army green shirt, running shoes

I am creating… this entry. 🙂 Oh yes… also boxes of stuff and bags to go to charity.

I am going… to Target when I’m done with this. To northern California on Friday.

I am reading… The Alpine Nemesis by Mary Daheim. (Re-reading actually.)

I am hoping… the move goes off without a hitch.

I am hearing… Fernando Ortega through my earbuds (which are turned up loudly enough to block out everyone else at $tarbux).

Around the house… chaos and boxes.

One of my favorite things… Daniel’s smile in the morning when I go to get him from his crib.

A few plans for the rest of the week: MOVING on Thursday. Last PT/OT appointment on Wednesday. Hopefully the zoo tomorrow.

Here is picture for thought I am sharing… Me holding Daniel for the first time on April 25, 2009. He was almost 3 weeks old and FINALLY off the ventilator.

Me holding Daniel for the first time on April 25. 2009. He was almost 3 weeks old and just off the ventilator.

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