OK… peacefulness is over. Panic has set in, especially since the *(&(*^ mechanic hasn’t show up yet. He promised to stop by the church by 5 and it’s now 6:30.

The tears are flowing here. I know I shouldn’t ask this but… why us????? Why is all of this happening at once? Why can’t I have at least 3 months go by between catastrophes? Why can’t I have a steady job so that we’re not living from paycheck to paycheck? People have stepped up to help and I am incredibly appreciative of them. It’s just that… everything seems to be happening to me right now.

My hospital bill for my cyst is almost $3000. The car is needing repairs and the bill is probably not going to be pretty. Alltel made a mistake and credited another person’s HUGE payment to our account, so we’ll probably have to pay back the two months of free phone service.

Why am I not freaking out? The hospital is sending us a care application (which would get the bill reduced or eliminated) and will work out a payment plan with us for what doesn’t get eliminated. The mechanic will probably work out a payment plan with us. Alltel will spread the amount we have over a few billing cycles.

It’s all going to be OK.

I heard back from two people to whom I submitted my resumé. One was the moderator of a church in the boondocks of Licking County (which I have actually been to) and the other was Pastor Ruth regarding the Summer Sampler experience. I’m hoping I get the Summer Sampler experience but there are three other women applying for two counselor positions, so I might not. I hope I also hear from the the veterinarian (receptionist position) and the dental office (at least that’s what I think it was).

Please pray for answers. I’d really like some right now. if I don’t get the Seminary Sampler position, I can deal; but I’d really like to have a job, if for no other reason, that I have something to do.

1. What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)?
Probably fiction in the form of murder mysteries. I’m also a fan of C.S. Lewis and Jan Karon.

2. What is your favorite novel?
Christy by Catherine Marshall.

3. Do you have a favorite poem? (Share it!)
My favorite is The Lady of Shallott by Tennyson. I also like The Highwayman by Noyes. As far as a poet, I’d have to say Emily Dickinson hands down because I love almost all of her poems.

4. What is one thing you’ve always wanted to read, or wish you had more time to read?
The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy by Adams.

5. What are you currently reading?
I’m in between books. I’ll probably tackle the Chronicles of Narnia again.

Mr. Rogers has passed on. I watched him religiously when I was little and I jokingly think this is what is making me a pastor now.

Sigh… it is a sad day in the neighborhood.

I’ve realized that my prcrastination of all things is related to the fact that I am simply bored out of my skull. I have nothing to do but get these things (compiling my resumé, responding to letters and emails, cleaning my study) and pretty much the only thing I’m living for (besides God) is seeing my family in Washington in a month and a half. Yep… Jen needs a job. If I was working, I’d have less time to do stuff like redesign my website and the time I’d have would be more precious.

It probably also doesn’t help that Jon is at the church right now for a Council meeting and he has the disk with all my resumé files that I am too lazy to download off of Monster.Com.

Maybe the aftermath of “Joe Millionare” (which I’m watching only because I saw the final choice last week) will have some benefits.

Ohio has ruled me ineligible to collect unemployment (for reasons which I can’t understand), so my job hunt is intensifying. My ex-store manager at Drug Emporium offered to interview me in a month if I haven’t found work, but I really don’t want to go back there. The store was badly managed and I really hated going into work. I’m trying to avoid retail (since I have decided NO FAST FOOD) because very few stores really treat their employees well around here. Drug Emporium was *always* getting applications and I have no doubt that they replaced me with someone who would work Sunday mornings and who would take crap from the head cashier.

Jon is going into Columbus tomorrow and I need to give him my resumé and cover letter to take to the sem to be a counselor for Seminary Sampler this summer. I didn’t apply immediately because I wanted to make sure that I was doing it for the experience of working with youth and showing them about the diversity of ministry instead of for the $3000 stipend. Now, I’m having problems motivating myself to get the resumé done and I think part of it is that I’m nervous about applying. I don’t have as much youth experience as a lot of people have and I blew my chance for any youth experience at St. Paul’s by getting sick and not going to Festival of Faith this weekend. Some of the people applying undoubtedly have years more than me and since I wasn’t at the sem last year, I don’t know how that is going to affect my chances. I am signed on with a temp agency and could just do temp work until June, but I’d really like the job because I think that this program is really wonderful and I wish I’d had it when I was in high school.

My brother pointed out that I chose a good time to get this sick — I don’t think I would have been able to deal with my cyst if I was still working at Drug Emporium.