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How I’m Doing

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Daniel’s updates can be found here.

My incision is almost healed and hopefully the steri-strips will fall off one of these days.Â? There seem to be no after-effects from the pre-eclampsia and everything seems to have unswelled and gotten back to normal except for my right hand — still having tingling in my fingers.Â? The only thing that hasn’t recovered is my energy level — I’m still really exhausted all the time but that’s to be expected, considering the c-section and how sick I was.

We’re two weeks into what could be an 8-10 week stay in the NICU.Â? We’re commuting back and forth right now though I’ll be staying down here for a few days this weekend while Jon is out of town.Â? We get 2-3 care times with Daniel though only one is hands-on, depending on how he’s doing and what needs to be done.Â? We’re getting church stuff and personal errands done in the morning before we head down and Jon is going to be home all day tomorrow to take care of house stuff while I come down on my own.Â? I’m just now allowed to drive and I’m hoping it goes well tomorrow.

Faith-wise, it was weird having all of this take place during Holy Week.Â? I wasn’t even thinking in terms of the Passion because I missed Palm Sunday and was in the hospital for everything else.Â? I slept through church on Easter Sunday because I just wasn’t up to being around people and I had also just gotten out of the hospital the evening before.Â? It’s been really trying on my spirit though what I haven’t done is ask WHY.Â? It just doesn’t seem like a question that I want answered at the moment.Â? I know that I’m much more grateful for what I have each day and I’m living the admonition in Matthew 6:34 about not worrying about tomorrow because today has its own issues.

Please keep praying for us.Â? We appreciate everyone’s thoughts and prayers as they have helped tremendously.

Lent

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As I was watching the snow fall like powdered sugar this morning, I had just one thought in mind:

WHEN IS THIS FREAKING WINTER GOING TO END?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I’m becoming like Edda the Puss when it comes to snow.Â? I don’t like it!!!!Â? Make it go away!!!!

So today is Ash Wednesday which is the first day of Lent.Â? (Easter is around Tax Day again.Â? Yes, I’m positively happy that Jesus paid my Death Tax for me.)Â? It’s a meatless day for me which is a royal pain because I’m hellishly depressed and not feeling like eating… and the only things I have the house that fit this have meat in them.Â? Crap!Â? I’m also giving up swearing which means 4-lettered words mostly.Â? (I’m keeping the precursors though.)

I should theoretically go to church tonight.Â? Then again, I should do a lot of things.Â? For example, I should have gone to work today; but called in sick after crying for a good two hours at the thought of having to go deal with people.Â? The thought of going to church tonight is making me similarly upset.Â? Not that I hate everyone — I’m just having “one of those days weeks”.Â? I’m grateful to have a boss who understands but I still feel guilty.

Musings

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[+] After about two weeks of nice Chinook winds, we got a few inches of snow Friday and yesterday.Â? The roads are fine — it’s just WHITE outside because it’s also cloudy.Â? Edda is just confused beyond all get out.Â? Black cats just don’t understand white very well.

[+] I might have to make it one of my Lenten disciplines to actually GO to church — I’ve missed more than I’ve attended this year because I’ve been sick or incredibly tired (more the later).Â? I’ve made it on Communion Sundays and to the annual meeting but that seems like all.Â? This morning (for example), I woke up tired and stuffy so I just drove my coffeehour stuff over to church, left a note, and came home to take Sudafed and go back to sleep.Â? I know… I’m just taking care of myself and of little Daniel inside of me but I *should* be making a better effort to keep the Sabbath.

[+] My mommy is home from Paris after 3 weeks there.Â? This is a GOOD THING.Â? I did get to talk to her weekly but I’ve missed having her one time zone away.

[+] I’m reading Animal, Vegetable, Miracle: A Year in Food Life by Barbara Kingsolver and it’s excellent.Â? (Then again, all of her non-fiction is good and I’d heard pretty much the gist of the book on an episode of Speaking of Faith.)Â? I should probably be feeling guilty because I do eat a fair amount of processed food at the moment (well… given that I’m living on ramen) and I eat a lot of Subway because it’s on my way home and I can actually control what’s on my sandwich.Â? However, I’m also so low on spare time and energy at the moment that I’m not fully able to have a conscience about where my food was raised and how far it traveled to get to me.Â? More about my thoughts on the book and its feasibility for me later.