If I Knew God Was Real

**Disclaimer: I am not writing this because I want a fight — I think it’s a valid question and as a convert to Christianity, it’s one that I should answer.**

From Jen @ BlagHag who tossed this out to her readers on what they would do if they knew/had proof that God was real.

Let’s assume you have proof that God exists. You’re now a believer for whatever reason. But believing in God is totally different from following his laws and living your life the way he desires. Would you actually worship him? Would your life change in any way? Or would you rebel for any ethical, philosophical, or personal reasons?

Jen acknowledged that conceiving of a Protestant godhead would be different than a deist godhead or a Zeus-like godhead. The discussion in her comments was assuming that we were talking about the Judeo-Christian godhead. (I would personally prefer the term “Abrahamic” so as to include Islam which shares its conception of God with the Jews and Christians.) Within that framework, most of the commenters were saying that they’d rebel if it was the God of the Old Testament and going off on what a jerk this God was.

(The best comment by far was from someone who said that they “[didn’t] want to worship the god that Glenn Beck worships”. My response: “Most of us don’t worship that God. We worship the God manifested in Jesus Christ.”)

So… if I knew God was real (had proof/whatever), would I actually worship him and would my life change? Would I rebel?

I’m sure that people who might surf here from Jen’s site would expect my answer as a committed Christian to be a resounding and perky “OH YES!!! I WOULD WORSHIP HIM ALL MY DAYS AND LIVE MY LIFE ACCORDING TO HIS WILL!!!! I WOULD NEVER REBEL!!! WHY WOULD I WANT TO?!?!?!?” (BTW, anyone surfing over from BlagHag is most definitely welcome here both to read and to comment.) My answer is definitely different from that. Why? It’s because I wasn’t always Christian (or religious) and I can see both sides of that coin.

My seminary’s president, Dr. Mark Ramseth, would frequently quote Hebrews 10:31 which states that “it is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God”. I can relate to that because I know that fear was one of the first emotions I felt when I realized that OMG God is real and OMG I am such a screw-up. When you’re confronted with a God whose standard is perfection and you seriously fall short, it’s a very fearful thing and I struggled with that for a really long time.

The thing that gets me over the terror is the fact that God created me in love and loved me enough, even in my sinful and rebellious state, that he sent His Son to die in my place and atone for all the sin and rebellion. That love is much deeper, wider, and higher than I can comprehend. That love is life/soul/heart-changing and as a result, my life changed. When you come into relationship with someone you love and who loves you, your life is going to change and your outlook on things will change.

As for worshipping God, it’s a choice. I see God’s fingerprints in everything around me from the skies to the mountains to the ocean and worship, at least for me, is praising God for the amazingness of His creation.

One repetitive thing I saw in Jen’s comments was the thought that the God of the Old Testament was a jerk. (“Jerk” is about the most polite way I can express the sentiment conveyed.) Having been through Old Testament studies at a mainline seminary with a seriously FEMINIST professor, I can honestly say that I understand where people are coming from on this. However, the God of the Old Testament (who is the same as the God of the New Testament) isn’t exactly a jerk when you consider that He created the world and called it good, created man and called him very good, and then had to deal with disobedience when Adam and Eve ate from the Tree of Knowledge. The disobedience pretty much spirals from there and you see the Israelites dealing with the consequences of their bad decisions.

Oh yes… in response to any criticism about all the laws in Exodus, Leviticus, and Deuteronomy: the children of Israel were the chosen people and as a result, they were called to live a life that was different from the other peoples that lived around them. Being holy is being set apart and all those laws were meant to help the people be that way. If you want to know the purpose for all of them, read the Talmud and Mishnah. You can find enough discussion on them to make your head spin.

Does all that answer the question?

My Complete Opposite and Guilty Pleasure

I became acquainted with BlagHag last year during Blogathon 2009 when she was blogging for the Secular Student Alliance (the atheist answer to Intervarsity). She’s 180 degrees from me in some ways like being atheist and obsessed with sexuality; but she has the same snark level that I do (or would if I posted more often).

I don’t troll her comments and try to witness to her because that kind of breaks blogging etiquette rules. (More specifically the “thou shalt not actively oppose someone’s viewpoint in their comments and be annoying” rule.) Instead, I actually kind of enjoy seeing the flip side of whatever I might think.

She’s NSFW but she’s worth checking out if you’re into seeing the opposite opinion. Besides, she’s entertaining if nothing else.

Prayers Requested for a Friend

My friend Jenn (Cho) Vasco lost her husband to heart disease/failure yesterday. She has a 5 year old son and is now a widow at age 32. Please lift up prayers for her, her son Johnny, and for her family and in-laws as they deal with this tragic time.

Sanity… So Highly Overrated

An update on the events of the last few days…

[+] On my way back to the Snuggery yesterday, someone was turning into traffic and hit me. The main damage is my wheel well and the car body surrounding it — I managed to get the car home… and then found out that it was not driveable. Thank God for insurance companies and rental cars. Hopefully insurance will fix the damage.

[+] Jon has two funerals next week — one of which came up right after he found out about the car. It will take care of half of our deductible…

[+] Still job-hunting and hoping something comes of it. It’s seriously wrecking my self-esteem that I can’t find a job.

[+] I saw all the stuff on the news about the “touchdown Jesus” statue getting hit by lightning and burning. An even more irritating thought: THEY’RE REBUILDING IT!!!!!! That money could seriously be better used for something like feeding the hungry, helping disaster victims in third world countries, or well… pretty much ANYTHING else in Acts 2.

[+] For the most part, Lakers’ fans actually managed to behave themselves on Thursday when the Lakers won the NBA title. It’s unfortunate that a few fans decided to light things on fire but they were thankfully the minority. All the LA news stations were showing live pics of the area surrounding Staples Center and the LAPD was out in riot gear in anticipation of looting and arson and such.

[+] Tomorrow, I’ll be in San Diego with Jon where he’ll be supply-preaching. It’s kind of cool because I’ll almost be able to claim that I’ve driven every mile of I-15 between Mexico and the Canadian border.

Dr. Michael Newdow, Will You Please Go Now!

CNN.Com: Court clears reciting of Pledge of Allegiance at Western schools.

I wrote an open letter to Dr. Michael Newdow 6 years ago which earned me the ire of the person at the About.Com Guide to Atheism. (Why yes, I’m incredibly proud of it. Why do you ask?)

The Supreme Court basically laughed at him so he went back and had other parents file another lawsuit and AGAIN, he was turned down by the 9th Circuit Court of Appeals. I have a feeling that he’ll try and take it to the Supreme Court AGAIN who will hopefully laugh in his face AGAIN.

For the last time, the Pledge of Allegiance is NOT A PRAYER. You are pledging your allegiance TO the flag. God is not the recepient of this — the flag is. It is also NOT COMPULSORY as was decided in the 1943 Supreme Court decision West Virginia State Board of Education v. Barnette.

So… would Dr. Michael Newdow, would you please go now?!?!?!?!?!?