It’s 12:30 am and I can’t sleep. Part of it might have been not sleeping last night and then sleeping in until 2 this afternoon and part of it might be that my brain isn’t shutting up. So.. enjoy this entry which is the purgings of my brain.

[+] I’ve been in So Cal for about two weeks now. I’ve done things like get my California driver’s license, register to vote, get renter’s insurance, fight with the SSA over Daniel’s SSI (just don’t ask — it was an unpleasant experience), and all that. Part of me is trying not to get too comfy because this could just be a temporary thing. (Our “snuggery” is a month-to-month lease.) However, we may be here for awhile so I’m also trying to set down some roots.

[+] Unpacking “the snuggery” (as our abode is nicknamed) has been harder than expected because when I thought I had pared things down to bare essentials, I was quite wrong. I could probably have saved a coffee table but I also have waaaay too much for the kitchen and waaaay too much of Daniel’s stuff there. It’s been hard because so much needs to go back to my in-laws’ garage (where we’re storing things) and it’s a matter of sorting that all out.

[+] Daniel is cutting 4 teeth so I have a grumpy bear on my hands much of the time. He *did* take a nap today after having some Tylenol but I have no idea if he’ll wake up at 3 again or actually sleep through the night. I feel sorry for him — it has to be pretty painful.

[+] In addition to applying for every clerical job between here and Riverside, I also applied to work at Michael’s because it seemed like one of the few retail jobs that I’d actually enjoy. I can already envision myself helping customers find yarn things for projects and such. However, I did all the online app stuff and none of it means that I’m going to be hired. I’m trying not to put all my eggs in this one basket but it would be a pretty nice job.

[+] One of my in-laws’ neighbors/family friends needed a walking partner so my mother-in-law hooked us up. Our first night out was tonight and it was kind of nice to be the fast walker for a change since my stubby little legs usually make me lag behind.

[+] I’m pondering the thought of starting a pastor’s wife podcast. Any of my clergy spouse readers got any ideas?

[+] Please lift my father-in-law up in prayer because they’re trying to figure out what he has and he is in really serious pain. The C-word is definitely in the picture and it’s a matter of finding out which kind it is. We’ll probably get the diagnosis in a week but please pray for him and my mother-in-law in the meantime because the unknown of all of this is really terrifying for them.

[+] For some reason unbeknownst to me, I’m pondering the idea of a second child because something in me wants a little girl named Hannah Grace. Those who know me in real life know that this is a really BAAAAAD idea right now for several reasons. Firstly, this is not the time to be pregnant and needing stability and being in one place when things are kind of in flux. Secondly, it’s not financially beneficial as we’re covered by Jon’s insurance but pregnancy is expensive. Thirdly, my body is already giving up on me. Pregnancy would make that worse. Lastly, I’m in the MASSIVE HIGH RISK category for pregnancy after my experience last April. I’d be pretty much on 9-months of bed rest and that doesn’t work out with an 11 month old and the possibility of having to help take care of my father-in-law. I know my mother-in-law would help to the extent that she could, but the focus needs to be on my father-in-law right now, not me.

[+] I’m pondering the idea of getting a Celtic knot tattoo on my shoulder for my 30th birthday in May. Am I crazy?