Sutures

The dressing came off of one of my sutures yesterday so I actually got to see my incision. It basically just looks like a cut with 5 staples in it. I pondered the thought of taking a picture but decided against it because it would likely gross people out.

The suture in my navel is being really obnoxious so I’m seeing my P.A. about it in an hour. I figure that he’d probably *like* me to see him before I rip the sucker out myself.

I’m thinking that the idea to pierce my navel someday is not a good one?

**UPDATE**
They took my staples out. It was less painful than I thought it would be and I now have “steri strips” on my incisions. The adhesive is still fairly sticky so I’ll probably have blue fibers attached from my shirt. I got to see my navel for the first time in about a week and it’s pretty freaky looking. I’m not sure I’m going to have a career as a swimsuit or lingerie model but I can live with that.

“Girl Meets God”

When I had lunch with Dawn in November of 2003, she recommended “Girl Meets God” by Lauren F. Winner to me as a book that I might find interesting. I put it on my “to read” list and it unfortunately got postponed indefinitely due to my local library system not having it. (Technically, I could have gotten it from Concordia College on I.L.L. but I didn’t know that until today.) When I was in Sioux Falls last weekend, I finally got a copy at Barnes & Noble.

My thoughts: as a convert to Christianity who came to faith as an Episcopalian, I could sooooooo identify with what Lauren had to say. I found myself saying “that is exactly how I would have said that” when she was talking about a lot of her experiences in the church and it was actually comforting to know that my conversion experience was not the weirdest one in the world. Having also studied Judaism as a Religious Studies major, I also could appreciate the aspects of Orthodox Judaism that she spoke about.

I got on Amazon.Com and got Lauren’s next two books. I don’t usually buy books (since I can find almost everything I want within my library system) but I felt like I’d use both of them in my ministry life (when I actually am [God willing] ordained) and I didn’t really want to have to explain to my local librarian why I was checking out the third one (Real Sex: A Naked Look at Chastity — there are just some things I don’t want to explain to everyone in the small town where I live).

More On Recovery

I’ve been reading Cheryl’s archives and I feel pretty blessed because my gallbladder struggles have been *NOTHING* compared to hers. I’m doing pretty well already — I made it to church this morning (albeit doped on Toradol) and I walked 2.5 miles today in 90F heat without too much of a problem. (Note to self: TAKE MORE WATER ALONG.) Yes… I am a masochist and I know it’s only been 3 days since surgery. Yes, the instructions to rest and take it easy were wasted on me.

I’m amazed at all of this because I was so at peace with the surgery — there were parts that I really wasn’t thrilled about (the injection in my stomach for example) but for the most part, it was really easy surgery to have. This is pretty amazing because I am one of the biggest worriers in the world. (Those who know me in real life can attest to this.) Two of the three weeks before surgery were problem-free for the most part and I’ve been able to resume physical activity really fast.

God is good.

My Cats’ Response To Me

Since I’ve come home from the hospital, my cats have acted strangely toward me. Part of it is the “Where have you been?!?!?!?!?!? You abandoned us!!!!!” act and the other part is the fact that I smell funny. (I smell like the hospital.)

Edda has been happy to see me. My little panther missed me and the only problem I’ve had with her is negotiating where she’s allowed to put her paws when she climbs on top of me. (She tends to gravitate toward my sutures. OWWWW!!!!!) Freya has been inspecting me with her little pink nose and she has consented to being petted when we’ve both been on the bed. Finian doesn’t know what to do with me and Cullen was terrified of me when I first came home. Since we’ve established that I’m the one who pets him and scratches all his itchy tabby places, he’s started tolerating me again.

Surgery and Recovery

I had to be at the hospital at 6:30 yesterday morning. Once I got there, Jon filled out all the paperwork while they had me shower and shave my stomach area. (I didn’t have any hair there anyway, but I guess it’s protocol.) When I showered, I also had to wash my stomach with a betadine sponge which smelled pretty gross. After that, they got me in a gown, gave me an injection of a blood thinner in my stomach (which hurt), and started an IV on me. They also gave me two Valium.

I spent the next couple hours chilling in bed. Nurses came by to give me more injections in my IV and one gave me something to calm my stomach acids which tasted really nasty. The anesthetist and my P.A. both came in to check on me and finally around 9:15, they took me in to surgery. They strapped me to the table, put a cap on over my hair, and the anethetist gave me a shot of something that he said would make me light-headed. At that point, I blacked out.

I woke up in severe pain with a whole bunch of people standing over me. My P.A. asked how I was doing and my response was “I. HURT.” He was nice enough to let me use his hand as a stressball and I was polite enough to not stick my fingernails into it. He went and got Jon who held my hand for awhile and then went and got a female parishioner who was sitting with him. A held my hand and talked to me while they tried to get me back to full consciousness and manage my pain. I know they gave me morphine and they put me on an IV drip for liquids before sending me back to my room. Once there, two nurses got helped me to the bathroom, gave me back my underwear (they made me take it off before going into surgery as they were cutting into my lower abdomen), and helped me get comfortable in bed. They thankfully also brought me some 7-UP and I ended up napping for a bit while hooked up to a monitor that was taking my vital signs and tracking them.

2 hours later, one of the nurses and her aide came and took me for a short walk. While we were walking, I asked how big my gallbladder was. They offered to show me the amputated organ and I was amazed at how small it was. Apparently, it had shrunk quite a bit and in addition to removing it and the gallstones, they also had to remove some scar tissue from my liver because the inflammation had gotten so bad. They took me back to bed, gave me some more morphine, and I took a nice nap. A little later, they came into check on me, took me for another walk (this time, I made it through all the hospital corridors without a problem), gave me more morphine, and told me that if I would promise to drink the 7-UP and apple juice, they would take me off the IV fluids. Our parish nurse came to visit a little later as did one of my WELCA ladies who happened to see me walking while she was in the clinic.

They decided to keep me that night because my bowels were refusing to move, so I got some soup for dinner as well as some really nasty jello. My nurse spoiled me rotten and checked on me frequently. (This was mostly due to the fact that I wasn’t being obnoxious like the person across the hall from me was. I think he was having some kind of joint surgery and he was being really cantankerous.) She brought me some ice water and even gave me a back rub when she brought me my Toradol shot before I went to sleep.

I woke up at 3 a.m. to the sound of my hallmate trying to fight with the nurse. About 2 hours later, she came in and gave me some more Toradol (a painkiller). I then slept until about 7 when my hallmate started screaming “HELP! HELP! HELP! SOMEBODY COME HELP ME!!!” (I was thinking, “Dude… visualize using your call button.” His cries for help were over when he was going to get his breakfast.) They gave me some pudding (which I couldn’t eat) and some cream of wheat for breakfast. Then, they let me shower, a good thing because I was feeling pretty gross and when I finished showering, Tom (my P.A.) came in and took a look at me. He said I could go home and gave me instructions on what to take and all that jazz.

They let me out around 10:30 and we got my prescriptions from the pharmacy. I have some Toradol pills, some Darvocet (since I’m allergic to codeine), and some Zofran in case I get nauseous. As for the state of my stomach… I have 4 pieces of gauze covered with adhesive plastic on my abdomen and one of them is completely covering my navel. Apparently, I have dissolving sutures and 4 staples in each incision. I’m not having much pain unless I change positions. I also have pain in my shoulder from the CO2 they had to use to inflate my abdomen.

So… that’s the story and I’m heading back to bed now.

The Past Few Days

Jon and I just got back from Sioux Falls. We left Sunday after seeing Jon’s dad off to a conference at St. Olaf and got into town about 6:30. We had a lovely dinner at Olive Garden and then went to Barnes and Noble. (For those who don’t know, I’m an ex-BN slave.) It was seriously like being a kid in a candy store and having “pyramided” books while completely bored at cashwrap when I worked there to support my academic $tarbuck$ habit, I was having to fight off the urge to fix the displays. (Yes, I know I’m a freak.) I *did* buy two books: Girl Meets God by Lauren Winner and Boundaries by Cloud and Townsend. I crashed into bed that night, having had a crazybusy day with church and all that.

The next morning, I woke up and looked at the alarm clock and saw that it was 10:00. Dope! I had hoped to grab breakfast in the lobby but no luck. Since my “allergies” were causing me to cough up loads of yellowish-green gunk, I filled the script that my wonderful P.A. (to whom I promised to give chocolate if he would somehow get the script to me before I left on Sunday) wrote for me and dropped it at Walgreens. We then headed to the local branch of our bank, came back, got the prescription, and headed to $tarbuck$ to get something for me to drink. After I washed down my meds with a mint mocha chip frappucino, we headed to a discount shoe store where I found some summer sandals that fit (I have a really high arch so I have to get shoes that are wider than normal) and then headed to the Empire Mall. I found some underwear at Victoria’s Secret (nothing all that interesting — just some plain cotton underwear) and looked at Foot Locker to see if they had the running shoes I’ve been looking for. They didn’t, so I’m going to go online and find out the style and all that to give to the Watertown store when I go there for therapy in a couple weeks. (I put some of my birthday money onto a gift card for Foot Locker so that I’d have the money for running shoes when mine finally wore out.) We had lunch there and then headed back to the motel. I spent the afternoon reading, resting, riding 10 miles on the recumbent bike in the fitness room (and got some pretty good bruises from banging my knees on the machine because the seat couldn’t be adjusted well), and chilled that evening after getting food at Wendy’s. (Yes, I’ve honestly been watching my fat and I haven’t had any problems with stomach pain.)

This morning, we got up early, checked out, and headed up to Watertown where we had lunch, went grocery shopping, and then headed back to Minnesota.