I was going to re-design this tonight but I realized that with a take home final due this weekend and quite a few papers and things due this upcoming week, it would probably be good for me to wait until Thursday morning.

Mea culpa, mea culpa! I have to confess that I am really spiritually dry at this point. I have been letting my devotional time suffer in order to get massive quantities of schoolwork done and I really need to stop doing that. Jon has been having major depression problems this week and I have not had the emotional or spiritual energy to bear them. (Then again, I also have to remind myself that I am his fiancée, not his therapist.) I am so burned out and this is making it really hard to get my papers and projects done. I have 4 days until the quarter ends and quite a few things to do before it finally ends like my Church History final (which is due tomorrow) and my Old Testament Project.

I confess that I have also let my nighttime prayers succumb to my sleepiness though I’m not falling asleep until probably 12:30, even on nights when I have to be up at 6:30 the next morning so that I can shower and go to class. There is so much stress on me with the wedding and school right now (including the fact that I need to pack up my room) and I am experiencing insominia. I should probably stop watching “World’s Wildest Police Videos” to go to sleep and start talking with my Shepherd about the state of this lamb here.

I am starting to long for forest land like the redwoods of UCSC where I went to college or the forests of British Columbia where I spent my summers. (My grandparents have a cabin on the mainland across from Campbell River. It’s about an hour from there by boat.) I was alawys spiritually fed by the world around me as I walked through forests of pine and fir and gazed out on the Pacific Ocean. Now I am stuck in the city of Columbus which is pavement and grass. Hardly a feast for my Celtic senses of spirituality.

C/S