ok… monsoon season has resumed. or should that be hurricane season? all i know is that i am a cold and wet lepicat!!!!
my urbana page is up. (finally!!!!) woooo hooooo!!!!
tonight at Bible study, we were talking about what it means to abide in God, whether it is an inward manifestation or an outward manifestation and it got me thinking about how things have changed since freshman year or even fall of 1999 when i was depressed. back then, i would sob uncontrollably during the depression attacks whereas now i pray during them. a few weeks ago, i got hit with a particularly bad one and i remember opening my new calendar and seeing psalm 13:5 on it. God then moved me to read the psalm out loud and i realized that it mirrored the way i was feeling to a t. here is psalm 13 with verses 5 and 6 (my encouragement) in italics: how long, o Lord? will you forget me forever? how long will you hide your face from me? how long must i wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? how long will my enemy triumph over me? look on me and answer, o Lord my God. give light to my eyes, or i will sleep in death; my enemy will say, “i have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when i fall. but i trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. i will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me. it was kind of like God saying, “jen… i know you’re suffering but i’m here with you.” i really needed to hear that. i knew He was there (He always is) but i think sometimes i just need a reminder.