My meeting with the representative from Luther went very well today. He and I talked about my transfer plans and my year off and he really supported it 100%. I feel like I can get some flexibility with them, which is good. Now, I just need to meet with Dr. Fransen (Jon’s advisor) and figure out the game plan for Tuesday. Jane (our Contextual Ed person) does not know about us deciding to look out of state and at this point, I have no idea how it is going to work. I have yet to take my permit test and we need to get the car insured and everything transferred over to us. We’d have to have both of us driving so that one of us could drive the U-Haul truck. There has to be work for me in the town because I’m not sitting on my butt for a year, especially since we need the extra income.

On my way into the library today, I ran into a few people who have either just had their pre-Internship meetings or are going to have them. I vented to them for a while which was probably not the best thing for my reputation of not gossipping but it took some stress off of me. I am honestly beat up with stress and worry over this. The fact that Jon and I are getting through it is a testimony to the power of God because many couples would probably split over something like this. They reaffirmed that it is my call as well as Jon’s that should be considered and that their attempt to not put pressure on us has put a mountain of stuff on us that is worse than anything we’d face on Internship. Jane is not married and does not have a family and she doesn’t understand about not wanting to move around twice in 4 years. She was unattached when she went on Internship. Jon and I are not. She did this whole process thirty years ago. The majority of seminarians are not young men in their early 20’s. Most of the people at my seminary are old enough to have me as a kid and many have kids who are around my age.

I know God is in control of this but I am majorly frustrated!!!!

Lord, please let me rest in your arms right now and know that You have this under control and that you will be willing to take care of all of this. I know that You have some kind of plan and that I have no right to question what You decide but I wish I knew what was going to happen come July (or August). I am Yours and I know that as Your creation, You ultimately decide where I go and when I will come home to You. Please Lord, comfort me now and help me to know that I need not be afraid because You will be with me every step of the way. Amen.

C/S