I woke up at 3:45 with a mild panic attack. I just had a granola bar and some water (in case it was because my blood sugar was non-existent) and I woke Jon up and had him pray with me. Right now, I am feeling really scared and like I am going to cry. This isn’t a good thing since I have to be up in an hour and a half for church and I have to be functional (i.e. I’ve got roles in worship this morning).

Could y’all pray for me this morning? I’m starting to get panic feelings like I did in college and this isn’t good.

Well, sometimes my life just don’t make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It’s so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace

Surrender don’t come natural to me
I’d rather fight You for something I don’t really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I’ve beat my head against so many walls
Now I’m falling down, I’m falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin

I’m singing hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace

You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace
–“Hold Me Jesus” by Rich Mullins