Monthly Archives: March 2006
Home At Last
I said good-bye to my grandfather for possibly the last time on Tuesday afternoon.Â? He told me he loved me and I told him I loved him.Â? Since this is me, the tears were flowing.Â? Mom and I drove to Everett where she dropped me at the train station where the tears commenced flowing again.
I was all ready to get on the train at 5:45 but… that unfortunately was not in the plans thanks to a crane accident in Seattle.Â? I was stuck in Everett until 10 p.m. and around 8:45, I just lost it and started sobbing.Â? (There’s more to this story but it’s nothing I’m mentioning in a public entry.)Â? When I finally got on the train, my bed was folded down for me and the porters brought me food.Â? They got big hugs for that.
I got home around 4 this afternoon.Â? I am tired and a little too angsty about some things in my personal life to say much more.Â? At least I’m home with my black cat (and the others… and of course Jon).
A Word from Seattle
Well… the Lenten abstention from soda lasted all of a day and a half. Oh yeah… I also ate meat on Friday.Â? Were it not for my two afghan squares a day, my soul might be in mortal danger.Â? 😛
Things are not as severe as I thought they were going to be.Â? Physiologically, my grandfather isn’t doing badly but his mind is really confused. Â? He can still recite MANY stanzas of poetry (since they had to do lots of memory work in school back in his day) and I’ve sung a couple hymns to him.Â? It’s actually been not that sad for me to be here and see this — it’s been more of a time of blessing for me because I’m getting about 7 hours a day with him and I’m able to sit and hold his hand and be present.Â? The sadness will probably come when I head home.
On a more positive note, I was able to have a lovely evening with my friend Melissa with whom I spent 3 years at UCSC.Â? The two of us headed to Applebees and then back to her apartment to watch the Oscars and talk.Â? She is literally the world’s most sweet and giving person and I’m really blessed to have her as my friend and to get to see her the last couple times I’ve been in Washington.Â? I really miss having her around since she’s very much like me in terms of faith and convictions.
I head back to Montana tomorrow and I’ll arrive sometime on Wednesday morning/afternoon depending on how late Amtrak is.Â? One nice thing: they messed up my reservation date coming here so my accomodation got upgraded to a deluxe family bedroom (i.e. my own sink and bathroom as well as more space).
Back to the crocheting I go!
Protected: A Prayer For Today
Ash Wednesday Thoughts
The Ballad of Reading Gaol
..And thus we rust Life’s iron chain
Degraded and alone:
And some men curse, and some men weep,
And some men make no moan:
But God’s eternal Laws and kind
And break the heart of stone.
And every human heart that breaks,
In prison-cell or yard,
Is as that broken box that gave
Its treasure to the Lord,
And filled the leper’s house
With the scent of costliest nard.
Ah! happy those whose hearts can break
And peace of pardon win!
How else may man make straight his plan
And cleanse his soul from Sin?
How else but through a broken heart
May Lord Christ enter in?
–Oscar Wilde