Around 1:00 this morning, I realized that I couldn’t fight this on my own and I needed treatment.Â? I woke Jon up and he took me to the E.R.Â? Thankfully, Dr. Awesome was there and agreed to see me even though she wasn’t the on-call doctor.Â? (Our chief-of-medicine was on-call and seeing him would have likely resulted in me throwing things and lunging at him with sharp, pointy objects.Â? He has no bedside manner, a god complex, and he is incapable of dealing with women who have mental health issues.)
Dr. Awesome spoke with the psychiatrist on call in Great Falls and they decided to give me some Zyprexa to calm me down.Â? She also admitted me for observation and had them put me on an IV to give me fluids as I was throwing up from the panic attack.Â? The IV was pretty traumatic because it took two tries to get it in and both were excruciatingly painful.Â? (I started just weeping after the first try and they had to wrap my hands/arms in warm blankets to get a vein up for a second try.)
I didn’t really sleep well until this morning after my meds and my shower.Â? (Yes, I got to shower.Â? It probably helped more than anything else.)Â? After I ate breakfast (which turned out to be fairly good), I just crashed and slept for the rest of the morning and most of the afternoon.Â? They discharged me around 4 with instructions to come back if the panic returned.Â? Dr. Awesome also put me back on the Effexor XR and after taking it this morning at my pre-pregnancy dose, I started feeling much better than I had for the last week.
I have to go see Dr. Awesome this week to discuss the risks of the Effexor and figure out what to do in terms of the pregnancy.Â? It’s a Class C medication which means that it *might* cause birth defects (in my case, a congenital heart issue) but I think everyone is agreeing that for me, the benefits outweigh the risks.
So… please continue to pray.Â? I need to say thanks to Dayna, Krissy, and Cheryl who have sent emails and Facebook messages in addition to Rich’s wonderful comment on the last entry.Â? I really appreciate y’all.
I am relieved to see this post and to know that you are okay. The power of prayer is an awesome thing.
Being the best mommy you can be means taking the best care of yourself. I agree that the need for certain meds outweigh certain small risks. Hang in there, chica. You are so in my prayers.
I miss our phone talks and apologize for pulling away. I told you something really personal and then got scared that I talked about it and had a meltdown. I really owe you a double apology because I should have told you that a year ago but chickened out. I’m so sorry I let that come in between us.
I love you, I am very, very proud of you and I just…admire you so much. You are so strong.
I’m so sorry you had to go through this. It sounds so awful. I’m holding you, Jon and the sea monkey in my prayers.