The second I saw the words “elementary school shooting” and “2 dead” on the screen, I turned the TV off yesterday. There are some things that just should not be broadcast on an endless loop and our media has the idiotic idea that it’s proper to interview kids in those situations.
I had already been sick for two weeks, seriously ill for three of them, not sleeping for three nights, and when I happened to see something about 26 people dead on Facebook, I completely lost it. Even better, I had to deal with Medi-Cal who completely… screwed up. (I’m trying not to drop gratuitous amounts of f-bombs like I did on Twitter yesterday while having to fix everything with Medi-Cal.) Yesterday was not a good day. (By the way, Daniel is fine in case you heard via Facebook or Twitter that we were having to get him in to urgent care to make sure he doesn’t have what I have.)
Do I have to even say how broken am I over the shooting? Someone posted the names of everyone killed and I started sobbing. I’ve had to hide status updates with the names of all the kids because the thought of kids just a few years older than Daniel dying is more than I can handle. I don’t think it’s a “mother” thing as much as I don’t think it would be so hard on me personally if I wasn’t a mother and if I hadn’t been through almost losing Daniel twice.
To the pro-life morons who decided to comment on how “20 kids died today but 2000 babies are aborted daily”: Did you ever consider that messages like that are why people ignore you and mock you? I’m totally pro-life here (unless the mom’s life is in danger or in cases of rape/incest) and seeing comments like that makes me want to vomit. Yes, it is tragic that 2000 babies are aborted daily (or whatever the statistic is) but 20 KIDS WERE MOWED DOWN BY A GUNMAN, ALL OF THEM SHOT MULTIPLE TIMES. These are actual human beings, not an excuse to advance your political cause. SHUT YOUR MOUTHS!
To Mike Huckabee: I’m almost ashamed to call myself a Christian after seeing your remarks about how this happened because we took God out of school. Actually, this happened because our country lacks adequate access to mental health, sufficient gun control, and our world is broken due to sin. I hope Fox News takes you off the air due to your insensitive remarks.
To everyone who has sent me a gun control petition in the last 24 hours: I agree 100% that we need better gun control and that the NRA are a bunch of right-wing nut jobs. However, THIS IS NOT AN APPROPRIATE TIME. Let the families bury their kids, let me stop sobbing every time I see the story mentioned, and then I’ll be more than happy to sign petitions, protest at the Capitol building in Sacramento, or do whatever I can for the cause.
To Westboro Baptist Church: I can honestly say that if you try to protest at *ANY* of the funerals/vigils/memorial services, there will be much pain on your part because folks do not take kindly to your crap when it comes to kids.
And because I honestly can’t string coherent thoughts together, I’ll just leave you with the song that’s been in my head since I first saw the news story yesterday: