Bible study lessons

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ok… monsoon season has resumed. or should that be hurricane season? all i know is that i am a cold and wet lepicat!!!!

my urbana page is up. (finally!!!!) woooo hooooo!!!!

tonight at Bible study, we were talking about what it means to abide in God, whether it is an inward manifestation or an outward manifestation and it got me thinking about how things have changed since freshman year or even fall of 1999 when i was depressed. back then, i would sob uncontrollably during the depression attacks whereas now i pray during them. a few weeks ago, i got hit with a particularly bad one and i remember opening my new calendar and seeing psalm 13:5 on it. God then moved me to read the psalm out loud and i realized that it mirrored the way i was feeling to a t. here is psalm 13 with verses 5 and 6 (my encouragement) in italics: how long, o Lord? will you forget me forever? how long will you hide your face from me? how long must i wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? how long will my enemy triumph over me? look on me and answer, o Lord my God. give light to my eyes, or i will sleep in death; my enemy will say, “i have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when i fall. but i trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. i will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me. it was kind of like God saying, “jen… i know you’re suffering but i’m here with you.” i really needed to hear that. i knew He was there (He always is) but i think sometimes i just need a reminder.

why i haven’t written in ages

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let’s see… i’m taking an extra-heavy load with 40+ pages due at the end of the quarter, i’ve applied to grad school, my major is finally (!!!!) declared, and i spent a weekend with my fox. can i take a few months off now?

noe is having to withdraw this quarter. waaaaaah!!!

depression attack!

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i am incredibly depressed today as well as sick. i didn’t sleep well last night because i was coughing and a whole lot of stress hit me today. if you pray, please pray for me.

jen is sick

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well… i got into my senior seminar… praise God!!! now if scs would give me my phone service back and if my bronchitis would pick up and leave me… steve has his page back up. woooo hoooooo!!!!

returning

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oh boy… where do i start in describing my winter break?

i worked at barnes and noble for two weeks which was fun though really tiring. retail at christmas is just nightmarish because you deal with so many people and so much merchandise. i ended up getting really sick twice — the second day i was back (which i am not going to talk about since it was both mortifying for me as well as disgusting) and the last day when i was having severe asthma problems. they diagnosed me with pleurisy (inflammation of the lungs).

i went to montana with ma famille and ma fiancée (yes… i know my french is atrocious) and that was wonderful. i got to see my extended family again and i got to play with my little cousins.
then, i left for urbana. urbana was so intense and amazing that it requires a page of its own. i’ll post it when i get a chance. i came back with bronchitis (which was mild considering that others came back with bad fevers and stuff).

i’m back at school now and doing classes again.

see you in 2001!

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well… i’m out of here in a few hours. this means no more updates until january since i’ll be home and i can’t take my computer with me. i’ll probably (God willing) be working at barnes and noble over the break and visiting relatives in montana before flying to illinois for urbana. so… merry christmas/happy hannukah/happy solstice to everyone and to all a good night