Postponement

I’m getting the feeling right now that my plans to return to school this fall are perhaps not the ones the Lord wants me to have. Last year, I was chomping at the bit to get back to seminary. Right now, I’m kind of not as diehard about having to be back in school in September.

This is kind of shocking considering my anguish last April when I was denied candidacy for ordained ministry. I remember being so crushed and devastated by the news that it took HOURS to stop crying. The bitterness and my attempts to get back in didn’t even stop until November when I realized that my attempts were not helping me or my case. (The candidacy committee of my synod in Ohio is tough to work with and has been declared so by about 70% of those dealing with them, but that doesn’t mean I need to badmouth them at every turn. It also makes me look like I’m not mature enough to deal with this.) If the Lord wants me to serve Him as a minister of Word and Sacrament, He can direct my steps in that direction.

Maybe I’m healed from the pain of last April. Maybe I still have a little more to work on before I’m really ready. Maybe I’m just really satisfied with my life here and don’t want to face another transition or the fact that I’d be away from Jon and the cats three or four days a week. All I know is that if I’d been in school this year, the following things wouldn’t have happened:

  • We wouldn’t have adopted Freya and Edda.
  • I wouldn’t have been able to go with Jon to call interviews, which means that I wouldn’t have met the call committee at the churches here who were the deciding factor in our decision to come.
  • I wouldn’t have gotten to sing Fauré’s Requiem with St. Paul’s and that’s an experience that was incredibly healing after this summer.
  • I wouldn’t have gotten to participate in the funerals this summer. It was a tough experience but it taught me how I grieve and also how to deal with grieving people. Death is also not as freaky to me.
  • I wouldn’t be teaching 14 Vikings about the tenets of Lutheranism and be dragged into discussions on embalming practices.
  • As usual, the Lord knew best. Now to see what’s next in store for me…

    Answer: Glasses, Basketball, and Bossy Kitties

    Question: What has ruled the last 24 hours at Casa K-M?

    Glasses
    Jon popped one of his lenses on the bed and we haven’t been able to find it. (I’m thinking it was gone before it hit the bed.) Lift up some prayers that we find it — I’m not in the mood to make a journey to Watertown to get it replaced, even if it would be covered by insurance.

    Basketball
    After a trip to Watertown for banking, lunch, and Wal-Mart, we quickly headed home to drop off groceries and then went to the high school to watch some basketball. Three of my confirmands were playing (one in each game in addition to a girl from the churches) and two of them were playing games at the same time. I watched the first half of B-squad and the second half of C-squad before I headed in to watch varsity. Varsity and C-squad lost (a shame because they were playing our big rivals) and B-squad kicked major butt. I usually am bored to tears by sporting events, but I had a great time tonight. I also got some work done on my afghan — a good thing since I’m having some problems in being able to work on it…

    Cullen being... ummm.... helpful

    Bossy Cats
    This morning I was awakened by 13 lbs of fluffy tabby roaring loudly for me to get up and follow him. I followed him downstairs into the Confirmation room and he walked into the chapel… where Jon was doing devos and his brother and sisters were “helping”. Methinks the cats are in favor of family devotions???

    Off I go to fold bulletins like a good little khouria!

    The Art of Gremlin Charming

    I was sitting at the laptop and I started hearing strains of “Jesus, Lover of My Soul” being played on a tin whistle. Jon came up a few minutes later and announced that he was cultivating the art of gremlin charming. I went down to see and the gremlin was sitting on the filing cabinet looking very confused. She didn’t want to pose for a photograph and went to hide in her litterbox. After a thorough wipedown with some baby wipes, we put her back on the cabinet and got these pictures…



    Triskaidekaphobic Friday Five

    1. Are you superstitious?
    Nope.

    2. What extremes have you heard of someone going to in the name of superstition?
    Gluing a mirror back together

    3. Believer or not, what’s your favorite superstition?
    The one about the black cat being bad luck if it crosses your path. Of course I don’t believe it — I have a beautiful black princessish cat.

    4. Do you believe in luck? If yes, do you have a lucky number/article of clothing/ritual?
    I don’t necessarily believe in luck. (Why should I? I’m Irish. Luck is in my bloodstream — I just know it’s there, not something that requires belief.) I have a favorite number, but I don’t know if it brings me luck necessarily.

    5. Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not?
    Not really. I’m a Taurus, but even that doesn’t fit me because I should logically be a Gemini (because I’m a twin) and I’m not.

    Yeah… And a Three-Headed Elvis Clone Is GoingTo Pop Out of My Stomach And Start Singing Marilyn Manson Songs

    Someone emailed me the link to the story in the rubbish pile waste of webspace tabloid known as the Drudge Report about John Kerry’s alledged affair. My thought: are their scum so desperate that they’re ripping stories of the National Enquirer? If his marital infidelities were such a horrifying issue, they probably would have surfaced somewhere around… New Hampshire? I mean, for goodness sake, he’s a P-O-L-I-T-I-C-I-A-N. It’s not like his life is all that private. Wouldn’t something like this be kind of public knowledge early on?

    I think someone is really scared of how well he’s doing and wants him out. Why else would this crap be drudged up dredged up now unless there’s someone who wants him down?

    Even if it’s true, I’d still take him over Bush. His lies haven’t shed the blood of thousands of innocent people or ruined the reputation of a country in the world.

    **UPDATE: Guess which of the following newspapers reported on the alleged John Kerry affair:

    The NY Times
    The San Jose Mercury News
    The Seattle P-I
    The Pioneer Press
    The Star Tribune
    The Washington Post
    The LA Times

    If you guessed “NONE OF THEM”, you’re right. I guess there are more important things than the trash ordure slander libel gossip produced by the idiots at the Drudge Report.**