I’m tired so I’m borrowing a prompt off of this list. Today’s is…
A fear you would overcome if you were given the opportunnity
Mine would be singing by myself in front of people. I am classically trained as a vocalist and I am an awesome choir person (I can sightread well and I know how to blend), but the idea of singing a solo terrifies me. It would be nice to be able to be one of the cantors for church, especially on the first Sunday of Lent when we sing this.
For Today… October 15, 2017
Looking out my window… dark. It was in the low 60’s F this afternoon when we were sitting out and talking before Sunday dinner. It was really mostly in the 50’s F today with the exception of that time.
I am thinking… about the assignments I have due this week. It’s not a bad load but I do need to get it done. Mostly, I need to do Skype stuff with one of my Electronic Communications teammates before Saturday.
I am thankful… for my nap this afternoon. It was heavenly, even if it meant my PE reading didn’t get done before Sunday dinner.
One of my favorite things… sleep. I’m wishing I was asleep instead of up with the kiddo getting a late night snack.
I am wearing… jammies. Church clothes were a long-sleeved charcoal heather shirt, black slacks, my black flats, and my grey hoodie because it ended up being cold in the church.
I am creating… discussion posts for PE, this entry, and reports for my Sage class.
I am listening to… the sound of the Cheerios scraping against Daniel’s bowl.
I am hoping… for a productive day tomorrow.
I am learning… best practices for Skype and video-conferencing.
In my kitchen… Dad made pasta, sauce, meatballs, and salad tonight. Mom contributed an apple pie with apples from the family orchard in Burlington.
In the school room… Daniel’s class gets to go to the pumpkin patch next week!
Shared Quote… “Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.” – Oscar Wilde
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I wanted to introduce you to one of my favorite choral groups today…
So, I’ve made fun of the whole pumpkin spice latté thing forever, especially the stupidity published by Food Babe about how it didn’t contain any pumpkin (it’s about the flavoring and spices, not the pumpkin, you idiot!) and I finally decided to try the frappucino version.
Verdict: OK but not worth the hype. I liked the spices they sprinkled on the whipped cream (which I forgot to ask them not to put on — oops!) and the frappucino tasted kind of like brown sugar. I guess they actually started putting pumpkin in the syrup after Fear Food Babe complained?
Surprise surprise. This is just proof that… CLEVELAND’S SPORTS TEAMS SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(HT: Yahoo Sports)
I guess I can go back to fully hating the Yankees now…
What the eff?!?!?!? An African-American man swings a flashlight at a white supremacist trying to spear him and another man with a Confederate flagpole, gets kicked to the ground, beaten almost to death… and is charged with a felony in his own beating. I swear, I am not making this crap up and IT IS PISSING ME OFF!!!!
Definitely autumn. It is seriously too freaking cold in the mornings and I’m going back to bed and falling back asleep because I’m trying to get warm. Alas, this is screwing with my productivity. *grumps*
Some hopeful “news”. It turns out that the supervolcano below Yellowstone National Park could spring to life quickly, erupt, and destroy life as we know it. Yeah… been hearing that on the Discovery Channel for 10 years, Fox News. Oh wait… a UFO has been spotted above it? That’s actually slightly more believable than the normal crap y’all report.
Harvey Weinstein. This is an excellent piece on why women don’t fight back or speak up when they’re harrassed.
How pro-life of him. 45 is threatening to pull hurricane relief efforts from Puerto Rico. Apparently, he doesn’t like being told that his measly efforts are craptastic, and that throwing a roll of paper towels at people or purposely misprounouncing the island’s name is immature.. Cry me a freaking river, dude. 80% of the island has no electricity and people are homeless. I know you didn’t carry the territory in the 2016 election (are they even allowed to vote for the president?), but they deserve the same level of relief that Texas and Florida are getting.
One more baseball take. I’m waiting with bated breath to find out who gets to knock the Losers in LA out in the NLCS. C’mon Cubbies! Mama wants you to go on to #BeatLA!!!
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Currently in the ALDS/NLDS…
-I can’t decide who should win in the matchings with the Yankees vs. Indians because they both apparently have contracts with Satan. (I mean, hello? Cleveland sports teams SUCK as a rule! There has to be a Shoeless Joe thing going on there!) I’d kind of like both teams to disappear in a puff of smoke.
-I’m wishing the Astros weren’t doing so well because Texas. Still, I’d prefer them in any match-up with the Yankees or Indians.
-I think I’m rooting for the Cubs a little bit over the Nats. I’ll definitely be rooting like hell for the winner to take out the Dodgers. I mean, the Dodgers in the World Series? The freaking state of California is on fire trying to prevent this!!! Hoping that the Cubs or Nats #BeatLA!
While I was living with my former in-laws, my (hopefully soon-to-be) former mother-in-law made the suggestion that I could start a ministry for families with kids with special needs in Jon’s next parish. When I told her why that was really not a good idea, she was less than pleased and told me that I was being incredibly selfish.
Huh.
A year later, I was fighting bout #2 of bronchitis which was caused partially by the stress of ending my marriage. My parents were out of town and my idiot PA told me he wanted to admit me to the hospital immediately for Prednisone and antibiotics. When I told him that I couldn’t be admitted to the hospital because I had nobody to watch my child, he excoriated me for refusing the prednisone (which, by the way, IS BLACK-BOXED ON MY CHART FOR THE REACTION I HAVE TO IT!!!!!) and for refusing hospital admission, telling me that I had to take care of myself and learn to ask for help.
Huh.
What these two things have in common is that both of them assumed that I have far more in terms of resources than I actually had. My former mother-in-law assumed that I would have the emotional, mental, and physical resources to take care of Daniel at church AND several other kids with varying levels of special needs. In churches that have such ministries, THAT’S NOT HOW IT WORKS. You have rotating groups of people who are trained that take turns helping out one Sunday a month. You never ask the parents to be the ones doing it because Sunday worship might be the one time a week they get to replenish their emotional/mental reserves for the week.
My idiot PA assumed that I had people who could help and I was just refusing to ask. Yeah… if I had people who could take over my difficult child, DON’T YOU THINK I WOULD ASK?!?!?!? So many single mamas like me with difficult kids are frequently flying by the seat of our pants. Yes, my parents could take over… unless they’re not available and then I’m very much SOL. I had a control journal for Daniel and if I had been hooked up with the local Regional Center, I might have had a respite worker… but we were in the process of moving so I never got hooked up. So I was taking care of my kid and getting him to school on no sleep and I’d be coughing so badly I was puking while he was at school. I probably should have been hospitalized (no Prednisone though!) but I had no choice but to refuse. (My BFF and my tasoni both mothered me by remote control that week and it helped immensely.)
I wish the world could understand that a lot of us moms with special kiddos are pouring from empty cups, not because we want to, but because we have no other choice. I want Daniel at church with me but by the same token, church is one of those times when I try to fill my cup for the next week. I managed to get through church with him a few weeks ago… but that was because my priest and my parish surrounded me and supported me so I could be a lector and I could sing with the choir. People asked me what I needed and gave me grace when my kid didn’t act like they wanted him to. That helped me fill up my cup a little bit.
